I am taking part of the sketchbook project . My good friend Nathan Carter did it last year, and it was so inspiring to see his work that I wanted to do it to. I think in away it wasn’t the project itself but the fact that I want my art to be as awesome as his. I envy his talent. I have been having issues lately where I am just not loving my art as much as I usually do. The reason I make art is that when I draw something, I usually love it. Like ridiculously love it. It will be a distorted human form with a retarded looking animal and I’ll be like, “Look what I made!” And I will love it. Seriously love it. And so when I make art, and I don’t like what I am doing, I just don’t see the point. You know what I mean? Why do it at all? But the reason my art is sucking is because I am not fucking around with it as much. I need to do it all the time. And I need to play with it. And I need to not care if it sucks. I just need to do it.
Anyway, so here I am doing my own sketchbook, and I was really hating it at first. Just thinking, “God, I am going to end up sending this in and is just going to be pages of suck.” but then I started working on my calendar. Every year I make a wall calendar that I give out for xmas gifts and sell at craft fairs and on the internets. Working on it has just been sucking. I need to stay focused on it to be able to get it done in time, but I am just having super bad hate when it comes to working on it. So I have been turning to the sketchbook to scribble it out. And things in there have been getting better as a result. Kinda weird how that works.